11.07.2007

8-miler: sub4 journey_11/7/2007

run time = 1:08:20

run dist = 8 mi

avg pace = 8:33/mi

best pace = 6:33/mi

calories burned = 1174

11.03.2007

sub4 journey: Oct28-Nov03

63.11 miles this week

10:09:38 hours of running

9991 Calories burned

9:40/mi. average

______________________

I've noticed that since I've been running past 50 miles per week (about 6 weeks), the weight is falling off. Anything lower than that mileage and I maintain weight. I'm at 181/2 and feeling good. No injuries or issues at this time. I'm looking to get down to 179 in 4 weeks time. Please pray for me to continue to progress. Napa is in March.

Thanks,
Jason

9.29.2007

Journey to sub4 Marathon

I started my run at 7:30, so I could be ready to watch the kids, so Mindy could go to a baby shower, then I'll have to take the girls to Nanna's soccer game at 12.

Here's the details of the run (weather was awesome this morning):

RUN TIME: 2:19:06

RUN DIST: 15.27 mi

AVG. PACE: 9:07/mi

BEST PACE: 7:02/mi

CALORIES BURNED: 2659Cal

Ran the first half slow, and sustained a pretty quick pace for the last half. I would rate the overall Perceived Effort Level at 6 (out of 10).

Word,
Jason

8.19.2007

Finally broke 2 in the 13.1, baby!!!

Run Time: 01:56:14

Run Dist: 13.1 mi.

Avg. Pace: 08:52/mi.

Best Pace: 07:52/mi.

Calories Burned: 2200

7.26.2007

Please Welcome My New Buddy



My new buddy is named, "Forerunner." He specializes in GPS and providing me the most helpful information while I'm running. He tells me time, elevation, time running, current minutes per mile pace, split distances, total distances, routes, timers, alarms, average minutes per mile per run, etc.. I can also hook him up to my PC and upload all the running data. This data will provide trends on progression, or lack thereof, over a set period of time.

I think we're going to get along real well. He's not the most expensive friend or the cheapest kind-- he's right in the middle and most functional. I will have to warn you that he's my friend only. He will not be allowed to play with other folks. Sorry. If you'd ever like to run with me, then his info. will be good for you, too. Imagine a world of no route mapping and math, because my wrist-mounted buddy will tell me all I need to know.

I may look a little like a cyborg on my runs, but I think that's cool. I may even crack open the watch and program it to dispense Gatorade at 10 mt. intervals.

7.18.2007

13.1 and no Thoughts

I ran my usual weekend half-marathon run on Saturday and don't remember a single thought I had. I remember running, sights, smells, cars, sweating, but I don't recall thinking about a single thing. This may be a miracle. I ran for 2:02:57 and didn't think about anything. I'm either getting better at dissociating or I'm having peace not yet felt before. I'm leaning towards my serotonin levels rising and therefore the ability to relax and enjoy the moment. I could get used to something like this.

7.12.2007

OFFICE DARES (read all-- you won't be disappointed)

ONE-POINT DARES
1) Run one lap around the office at top speed.
2) Ignore the first five people who say 'good morning' to you.
3) Phone someone in the office you barely know, leave your name and say, "Just called to say I can't talk right now. Bye."
4) To signal the end of a conversation, clamp your hands over your ears and grimace.
5) Leave your zipper open for one hour. If anyone points it out, say, "Sorry, I really prefer it this way."
6) Walk sideways to the photocopier.
7) While riding in an elevator, gasp dramatically every time the doors open.

TWO POINT DARES
1) Say to your boss, "I like your style" and shoot him with double-barreled fingers.
2) Babble incoherently at a fellow employee then ask, "Did you get all that, I don't want to have to repeat it."
3) Page yourself over the intercom (do not disguise your voice).
4) Kneel in front of the water cooler and drink directly from the nozzle (there must be a 'non-player' within sight).
5) Shout random numbers while someone is counting.

FIVE POINT DARES
1) At the end of a meeting, suggest that, for once, it would be nice to conclude with the singing of the national anthem (5 extra points if you actually launch into it yourself).
2) Walk into a very busy person's office and while they watch you with growing irritation, turn the light switch on/off 10 times.
3) For an hour, refer to everyone you speak to as "Bob."
4) Announce to everyone in a meeting that you "really have to go do a number two."
5) After every sentence, say 'Mon' in a really bad Jamaican accent. As in "The report's on your desk, Mon." Keep this up for 1 hour.
6) While an office mate is out, move their chair into the elevator.
7) In a meeting or crowded situation, slap your forehead repeatedly and mutter, "Shut up, all of you just shut up!"
8) At lunchtime, get down on your knees and announce, "As God as my witness, I'll never go hungry again."
9) In a colleague's DAY PLANNER, write in the 10am slot: "See how I look in tights."(5 Extra points if it is a male, 5 more if he is your boss)
10) Carry your keyboard over to your colleague and ask, "You wanna trade?"
11) Repeat the following conversation 10 times to the same person: "Do you hear that?" "What?" "Never mind, it's gone now."
12) Come to work in army fatigues and when asked why, say, "I can't talk about it."
13) Posing as a maitre d', call a colleague and tell him he's won a lunch for four at a local restaurant. Let him go.
14) Speak with an accent (French, German, Porky Pig, etc) during a very important conference call.
15) Find the vacuum and start vacuuming around your desk.!
16) Hang a 2' long piece of toilet roll from the back of your pants and act genuinely surprised when someone points it out.
17) Present meeting attendees with a cup of coffee and biscuits, smashing each biscuit with your fist.
18) During the course of a meeting, slowly edge your chair towards the door.
19) Arrange toy figures on the table to represent each meeting attendee, move them according to the movements of their real-life counterparts.
And if that wasn't enough for you...

How to keep a healthy level of insanity:
1) At lunchtime, sit in your parked car with sunglasses on and point a hair dryer at passing cars. See if they slow down.
2) Tell your children over dinner. "Due to the economy, we are going to have to let one of you go."
3) Every time someone asks you to do something, ask if they want fries with that.
4) Put your waste basket on your desk and label it "IN".
5) Put decaf in the coffee maker for 3 weeks. Once everyone has gotten over his or her caffeine addictions, switch to espresso.
6) Finish all your sentences with "In accordance with the prophecy."
7) Don't use any punctuation
8) Use, too...much; punctuation!
9) As often as possible, skip rather than walk.
10) Ask people what sex they are. Laugh hysterically after they answer.
11) Specify that your drive-through order is "to go."
12) Sing along at the opera.
13) Go to a poetry recital and ask why the poems don't rhyme.
14) Put mosquito netting around your work area. Play a tape of jungle sounds all day.
15) Five days in advance, tell your friends you can't attend their party because you're not in the mood.
16) Have your co-workers address you by your wrestling name, "Rock Hard."
17) When the money comes out of the ATM, scream "I Won! I Won! 3rd time this week!!!"
18) When leaving the zoo, start running towards the parking lot yelling, "Run for your lives, they're loose!"

And the final way to keep a healthy level of insanity....
19) Send this to everyone in your address book, even if they sent it to you or have asked you not to send them stuff like this.

7.03.2007

July 4th, 1990

A couple friends came and pulled me out of my studio apartment to go to some 4th of July party. My mom was in the hospital, so I was pretty bummed. I ask my friends who's going to be at the party and they said some girl named, "Mindy", that they wanted me to meet. I didn't want to and especially didn't want to be setup on a blind date. Two very bad things for me: parties with lots of people & being obligated to talk with strange girls-- bad, bad, bad.

Got introduced to about 5 girls coming into the party house. Everyone seemed a little peppy for me, but I drudged on. Shook Mindy's hand, but didn't make eye-contact because eye-contact has always been a hard thing for me to do. I later found out that I didn't make a very good impression on Mindy. She thought I was distant and cocky. Boy was she wrong. ;>)

We played board games (another thing on my list of bad things to do) and I noticed that Mindy was pretty outspoken about women's rights and such. I don't know how/when it happened, but she ended up in the chair next to me. What caught my eye were her big green eyes. She talked really fast and I liked talking to her.

We left the house to go see fireworks. In the car, I asked her if she believed in God. She said, "Yes." The fireworks were at another house that overlooked Reno. We shared a blanket as it got a little chilly. Mindy and I went into the house to use the restroom. When I came out, she was waiting for me. That was special to me. She believed in God and had a sweet spirit-- doesn't get any better than that.

I've been with Mindy from that day on. Mindy is good people. Loyal as they come. Nurturing like none other. Patient. Helps. She is a precious gem. A beautiful flower. My best friend.

I love you, Mindy. The last 17 years have flown by. I'm looking forward to many more with you.

6.13.2007

Come on, ladies :(


One of my hobbies is to discuss issues of life on a forum. The forum is made up of mostly atheists/darwinists/naturalists. You can imagine how fun the topic of evolution, macro-evolution, micro-evolution, intelligent design, and anything moral goes. I really enjoy it.

Recently a 19 year old girl asked the forumites if she was a bad wife for calling her husband on watching porn. I naively thought that people would encourage her and give her practical steps in confronting the issue. To my surprise, woman after woman dogged her for not being supportive of her husband. "He needs his outlet." "Maybe, you should watch it with him." "Boys will be boys." "Who are you to invade his privacy."

That was just scratching the surface of what the women told this young lady. It greatly saddened me that women are okay with the oppression/exploitation of women-- even advocate it. Totally saddening.

6.11.2007

Summer Runs


I have really enjoyed my last couple of morning runs. The weather is cool, the sun is just coming up, and it's peaceful. The usual ranch dogs run along the fence and say hello. I get to do my usual dance across the cattle-guard without breaking anything. It's a good time to just BE with God. At the forefront of my mind has been the reminder to BE with God and enjoy that time more than anything. I have to consciously remind myself to BE with Him before I start in on the requests. I don't want to treat Him like a vending machine. I feel truly blessed to have my health and the ability to run. When I enjoy nature, I know that I'm enjoying God. Do you know what I mean?

6.05.2007

The War Within

For about a week now, I have been particularly wrestling with pride. It's not the usual small offense kind of stuff, but the big/frustrating stuff. In the past, it's the kind of pride that gave birth to resentment and divisive walls. Good thing I have some tools to recognize it now.

While running the past couple of days the Lord has guided me through my feelings like never before. Maybe it's the other way around. I allowed the Lord to guide me through my feelings like never before. A few things in my life (lately) have hurt my feelings, offended me, and have caused me to choose a higher road than before.

I could get offended and react like a child, or I could calm down, talk it through, and move on. Well, duh, you know the one I chose. I asked the Lord why I was hurting so much about these recent offenses. The impression I got was that I still have rather substantial chunks of pride: entitlements and rights. Pursuing humility is a lifelong occurrence, but lately it has been painful. It reminds me of when a pick axe is needed to break up hard ground. I feel like I'm the rock.

It's not about me. It's not about me. It's not about me. I must repeat this frequently. I'm not on earth to showcase myself, or demand my usefulness. It shouldn't be where God has to align with me or I throw a tantrum. I must daily pray that I put on a robe of humility and simply make myself available to what GOD is doing. I'm here to serve. I'm here to serve. I'm here to serve. The Lord very much wants to break of the rocks of my pride. I will let Him. I love Him. He loves me.

Jason

5.30.2007

Stapp Lyrics (for my pale friends)

Broken

Why are we overcome with fear?
What if I told you that fear isn't real.
Why are we overcome with death?
What if I told you my friends your doubt
You could live without!
There is a question
I want to understand
Why can't everyone tell the truth and learn to love again
Do you know...what it feels like to be broken and used
Scared and confused
Yes I know
One more question...I know time is dear
Is what the world speaks of love really real?
The answers not of this world but very clear
Look above to find love and you found eternal life
Street corner preachers you've heard before
Friendly advice just gets thrown out the door
There is a question that I want to understand
Why can't everyone tell the truth...and learn to love again
Do you know...what it feels like to be broken and used?
Scared and confused
Yes I know...what it feels like to be broken and used
Scared and confused
Yes I know I'm Broken!

5.23.2007

Moving beyond OCD

If you didn't know, I have "struggled" with OCD since the age of 6. I won't bore you with each and every habit/tick/compulsion, but I'd like to touch on spelling and grammar. For the most part, through emotional healing and new habits, have been OCD "free-er." Some find OCD to be some cool thing; I find it to be tortuous and tiring (a prison of sorts).
I recently started notcing that people are catching my misspellings. Normally, this would be something that irritated me greatly. It would mean that I hadn't checked enough and put out an imperfect product (old thinking pattern). Now, I kind of chuckle when someone points out my spelling mistake, because I really don't care. This is a good sign. Not that I'd become illiterate or "dumb-down" but to allow myself the freedom to type what comes to mind and hit the submit button without obsessing (10-12 times I would check my comment/e-mail), then save as a draft, then repeat, then repeat, then repeat, then repeat. Ugh. I won't even get into how many things I used to count in my head, and how many times I had to check my alarm at night or if my car had been alarmed/locked.
Anyway, I don't want to obsess about not obsessing as much. Emotional healing was the key for me, along with speaking scriptures of peace over myself-- with regards to OCD. There's no formula, but I'd recommend, every time, that inner-healing helps with those struggling with OCD. If you notice that I've misspelled something or my grammar is off-- feel free to let me know. I'm past the pull it once had. :>)

5.22.2007

Names (inspired by Lou on Sunday)

Jason = Healer

Russell = Red Head

Bennett = Blessed

Healer Red Head Blessed

Yours?

5.17.2007

The Practical

Went on a 40 mt. run, then a 10 mt. walk. Man, was it hot today. During my run, I had some thoughts about how to meet the practical needs of our church community and local communities. I pondered ideas on how we'd make it an easy way for someone to ask for help. Many have needs and we all have certain skills/talents. The need and the solution are in place. We need a delivery system for making it all come together. This help and service is an exploding opportunity full of possibilities.

Jason

5.14.2007

Back in the Saddle

Went for a slow 30 mt. jog at lunch, then walked for about 10 mts. The weather was great-- a little hot though. I was so happy to be running again. Felt a little tightness in my quads, but other than that I felt great. I've met some goals and I'm pretty happy about that. 7 mos. ago I posted some goals on "Gathering Place." To name a few: 1) Get under 200 lbs.--now 190. 2) Run a 4:40 marathon-- ran 4:40. 3) Run the marathon continuously (no walk ratios)-- made it to mile 22 before I had to walk. That makes me very happy. Looks like I need some new goals.

I've had plenty of time to reflect on the marathon and I've basically come up with a couple things: 1) Stick to the plan-- even 20-30 seconds faster per mile will cause problems (bonk). 2) I truly thrive when I'm competing. 3) The Reno Marathon is sub-par.

New Goals:

  1. Run Napa Valley Marathon in March 2008.

  2. Weigh 180 lbs. by March 2008.

  3. Run Napa Valley Marathon in 4 hours or faster.

Jason

5.08.2007

I got friends in low places....

I was running with optimal energy and enthusiasm on Sunday (marathon day). I was well on my way to a 4:10 marathon. I wasn't breathing hard, and just had little hints of quad fatigue. I ran through the mile 20 marker like it was mile 5. I knew in the back of my mind that I had pushed the pace a little too much and wondered at what point the concrete wall that falls from the sky would hit. Well, apparently, I ran head-first into the concrete wall at 22 miles. This is 4.2 miles from the finish line.

In order to describe how the wall felt and how my core being dealt with it, I'll need to describe it in the form of characters/parts/alter-egos:

Friend #1 (the elite athlete): "Push, push, push. Stop whining and hang-in. This is where the men are separated from the boys. Suck it up! Keep the pace. One foot in front of the other. You didn't work this hard to quit now."

Friend #2 (the quitter/wuss extraordinare): "You're done. Finished. Quit. Stop. Lay down on the pavement, now! You're going to get seriously hurt if you continue. You've blown it and you need to admit it and quit. This is too painful and self-abuse."

Friend #3 (the encourager): "See, you're just an overweight, balding guy trying to prove something. You can't be a good distance runner. You still weigh 190 lbs. and have man-boobs. Give it up. Go back to couch duty and give this running stuff up."

Friend #4 (the diplomat): "Modify the approach by slowing down and taking walk-breaks. You may not make your goal, but it'll be okay and you'll still finish with a personal best. No need to get extreme here."

I found myself in a situation where I was questioning my character. It rocked the foundation of my mental capabilities. As I hit the final stretch to the finish line, I got a sudden rush of delirium and ran pretty fast for about 100 yards. I should have pretended that the finish line was just a 100 yards away for 4 miles. ;>)

Anyway, I'm glad it's over. I'm glad I did well. I'm glad that I'm alive. I will do better next time. That's just how I roll. Thanks for your prayers.

Jason




5.04.2007

Day 2 (Marathon Countdown)

Walked for about 15 mts., today. The sun was shining, and then the hail started. It was an unusual feeling to be walking in sunlight while getting pelted by hail balls. Gotta love how wind can do cool things.

I'm enjoying the increase in carbs, but sure am feeling sluggish. Seems counter-intuitive, but the carb-loading will pay-off on Sunday.

Jason

5.03.2007

Day 3 (Marathon Countdown)

Walked for 30 mts., today. Put my running shoes on and walked in my business attire. Had to wear a sweatshirt and needed the hood, because the wind was biting a bit on the cab doors. I saw my buddy (retarded guy that walks really fast, with headphones, singing loudly, and lifting hand weights as he walks), like every day. My legs are starting to get "that" feeling. It's a feeling you get when your legs are storing extra carbs/glycogen and the muscles start feeling like springs.

I enjoyed the view overlooking Sparks/Reno. Sometimes, I forget to look when I'm running. Enjoying the scenery, no matter the occasion, is good for the soul.



Jason

5.02.2007

Day 4 (Marathon Countdown)

Did a 4-miler at lunch, today. Ran 10:08 miles and felt great. The weather was a bit chillier and I really enjoyed it. In addition to the cooler weather, I really took notice to the wonderful smell of honeysuckle. The running path has lots of honeysuckle plants all along it. Honeysuckle is my favorite smelling flower.

My boss was out running at the same time. She passed me going out and coming in (meaning: she started later than I did, passed me, ran farther, and passed me on the way back). It took some effort for me to stay at my slow taper pace, because I really wanted to race her. She does triathlons and is in great shape. I'll have to save triathlon training for next year or so. It sounds like a lot of fun.

Jason

5.01.2007

Day 5 (Marathon Countdown)

Ran 3 at lunch, today. I was totally melting. Averaged a comfortable 9:50 mile. After how much I sweated, you'd think I ran for 2 hours. I really do prefer cold weather over hot. Hot weather makes me tired and irritable.

Anyway, another day closer to the marathon. So I don't accidentally hurt myself, I will be teaching the Bird how to mow the lawn, tonight. I love the week before the marathon.

Jason

4.30.2007

Final Week (Marathon Countdown)

Day 6

Got good sleep last night. Normal eating routine in effect. On lunch break-- ran 3 miles at 10 mt. pace and felt great. It was good for stretching out the muscles from tennis on Saturday. The Janzen's are great tennis players (it was basically a workout of numerous sprints-- I saw it as a great way to accomplish glycogen depletion).

I'll be back, tomorrow.

Jason

4.26.2007

A Run and a Root Beer


Did a 6.5-er at 12:30, today, and melted like a snowman. I'm running in the warmer weather to get somewhat acclimated for the warmer parts of the marathon on May 6. Obviously, you have to run slower in heat and your body needs to make some adjustments to run efficiently in the heat (not to mention electrolyte and carb replacement).
Lately, when I get back from my run, I get a hankering for a root beer. I can't explain it, but it goes down and tastes like nothing else after an hour of running in the sun (must be the sugar and sodium, good stuff).
Anyone else have a post-run/exercise drink that hits the spot? (Besides water, that is.)
Jason

4.21.2007

22-miler

Left at 6:45 this morning. I had the wind in my face for about 11 of the 22 miles. I sure did enjoy when the wind was at my back. The positive side to the wind coming against me was that it helped me keep a slower pace (which I needed to do), so that was a benefit.

I ran the 22 in 4:04:57 at a very comfortable, slow pace. It's very encouraging to have things come together like I have planned them. I'll go out on a limb and predict that I run this marathon on May 6 in: 4:22:00.

It's time to taper and have a 15-miler for next Saturday. I'm looking forward to the 2-3 days of carbo-loading and rest. I'm getting excited for the marathon!

Insight of the day: I don't have one, today. It was a nice, pleasant run. Void of much thought and full of prayer. I love praying when I run.

4.16.2007

18-miler

I almost felt guilty after I read DenDen's story of his crew's 22-mile weather drama. I ran on the same day as well, but I started out at 6:45 and it was in Fernley. The weather was at a comfortable 49/50, no wind, sunshine, and no sleet. It was pretty close to ideal running conditions. I really enjoyed it at an 11 minute/mile pace-- it felt great. I had numerous thoughts of how the run was going for the Hillside Runners.

Anyway, my 18-miler was uneventful and went down without a hitch. Took a potty break at mile 9, then finished up the last nine. My 22-miler is this Saturday, and I'll be starting at 6:45 again. Please say a prayer for me, as running that long can be challenging, but also a bit boring at times. My taper is 2 weeks long for this marathon. I'm experimenting with this, as my other 3 marathons were done with a 3 week taper. I'll let you know how it goes.

Insight of the day: The very same day can have different climates in it. I liken it to our daily lives. Sometimes, we're truckin' along and everything is a bowl of cherries. When out of nowhere comes a nasty surprise and staggers us. Friendships change, people change, jobs change, houses change, lots of things change, and sometimes it feels like a total blind-siding. God never changes!!!

4.11.2007

It's hailing, it's pouring


Headed out at about 11:40, today, and it was lightly raining. I had to watch my step, because the roads were wet. It feels so good to run while it's lightly raining-- it's like a built-in swamp cooler for your run (very nice). Turned around at 3.4 miles and headed back. At about mile 5, it started hailing. It was a hurts-so-good kind of moment. The little balls of hail were cool and icy, but they stung a little bit (weird combo to say the least).

Insight of the day: Some of the best runs I've ever had-- have been in weather that "appeared" to be to yucky to run in. If I apply to this to my life, I could say that some things look yucky/unappealing/difficult, but I'm thinking that there's often hidden/not-yet-seen blessings and enjoyment in them. They're pleasant surprises. :>)